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Welp, I figured it was about time I entered a profile description. Here goes nothing......
Well, good morning, afternoon, or evening, lady or gent. My name is John Marfice, and that is what I go by. Not "Johnny" or "Jonathan", but other peers around my school can't seem to get a grip. I've had my named spelled "Jhon" plenty of times before. like what!?
I am a 16-Year-Old Idaho native heading into my Junior year of High School, in a city called Coeur D'Alene. It might just be me being a teenager, but I really want to leave this place. I want to see the world someday.
I guess I'll highlight my gaming history here, seeing as how 99% of builds posted here are gaming-based builds anyway. It all started when I was about 4 or 5, back in around 2006. I remember my older brother, Adam, having Halo 2 LANs and taking over the living room. There'd be something like 10-12 people there, all grinding out 6v6 Slayer and CTF games on Halo 2. 4-Year-Old me, wanting to be like the "Cool Older Kids" took up an interest in video games from a young age.
My first console was a Nintendo 64. Obviously I wasn't a 90's kid, but my older brothers were. It came into the family's possession after a Wager one 90's Easter. My late brother Jeffery, Adam, and Sister Christina had taken an interest in a Nintendo 64 around this time. But, as the Nintendo 64 was a $300 console at this point. So my dad wagered to his kids that if they found all the Plastic Easter Eggs he had hidden throughout the Marfice house and property, he would buy them a Nintendo 64. My siblings spent upwards of 12 hours searching. While bouncing up and down to get a view in a tree in our front yard, Jeffery heard a cracking sound in the garden. Digging down almost 8 inches according to him, they found the last egg. And that is how the Nintendo 64 came into the family. I've tried to place similar wagers with my father when I was younger, mostly for an Xbox One, but I think he learned his lesson...
But how did that N64 come into my possession? Well, my brother Adam was getting tired of 4-Year-Old me messing with his Xbox without permission, and dug the Nintendo 64 out of the closet.
Banjo-Kazooie was the first video game I ever "properly" played.
My PC Gaming experience started at a young age as well. Around the same time, Christina was getting me into Club Penguin and 2001 Zoo Tycoon on the family's Dell Dimension in the basement. No idea which Dimension it was, probably a Pentium 3 or something.
Other consoles I spent my very early days of video gaming on included the Original Xbox, once my brother got more lenient about me playing it. My siblings also owned a Gamecube at one point, but I was too young to remember it. I think the story went that the Gamecube ended up breaking, and my brother got the Original Xbox for his birthday to make up for it.
These consoles remained into the family until Christmas of 2007, when me and my siblings unwrapped a Console I still own today: An Original, Fat, White Xbox 360, bundled with Guitar Hero. The family's first real HDTV, a Rear-Projection Samsung model, came from Costco with a Free Xbox 360. I credit my love for gaming today as well as my fascination for Guitar and Music to this Xbox 360 and Guitar Hero. As I said, the console is still in my possession today.
Well, I grew up on this Xbox. I started out with games like Lego Indiana Jones, and Lego Star Wars. LEGO Star Wars; TCS was actually the very first game I completed to 100%, unlocking literally everything you could. I was 8 at the time. As I started getting older, around 9, 10, and 11, I started to get more into T and M rated games. The first shooter I ever played was Rainbow 6 Vegas, and then I started getting into Ghost Recon: Advanced Warfighter. This was around 2010-2011.
2011 was a big year for me as a PC gamer. In March, I joined ROBLOX. I shamelessly admit to still playing ROBLOX regularly even today. That September, I ended up taking a long Hiatus from ROBLOX based on my parent's discretion. They believe everything the TV News says, and they did some smear story about ROBLOX supposedly being filled with Pedophiles. And yes, it was FOX news.
Not having a good PC game to play, I checked out ROBLOX's competitor while in a fit of rage over this sudden parental-ban. The competitor at the time, being Minecraft. I jumped on the Minecraft train right as the Beta 1.8 update launched, adding things like drawing back bows, sprinting, hunger, and Strongholds. This was right when Minecraft began it's worldwide explosion. I jumped on the Hype Train right as it was leaving the station, and I still get nostalgic about those times.
2012 and 2013 were spent playing nothing but Minecraft. 2013 is when my 6th Grade Year started, and I ended up getting into another game.
I became fascinated with Halo after watching this 20-minute LEGO stopmotion movie about this battle on Zanzibar beach. I got my first game from the series on Christmas, which was Halo Reach. From then I went on to buy/order Halo Anniversary, Halo 2, Halo 3, and Halo 4 and played through them all.
Onto 2014. November-December of 2014 were a big deal for me. November marked the release of Halo: The Master Chief Collection which included a 10-Year-Anniversary remaster of my favorite game I'd ever played, Halo 2. I ended up thankfully receiving an Xbox One bundled with the game that Christmas. I had shown my mother a cinematic trailer for the game prior to launch, which had some Remastered cutscenes from Halo 2. Even today, they are still absolutely phenomenal. Her jaw was wide open the whole time, and after wards, she yelled at me. "That isn't even a game, that's a MOVIE!" I think that's what sold her on the Xbox One thing.
I stayed with the Xbox One until the Summer of 2016. Halo 5 had come out the last Autumn, so I had that to keep me occupied. But it was at this point, heading into the summer between my 8th Grade and Freshman Year of High school, where I decided to ascend. Most of my friends were PC-Exclusive gamers at this point. Even some of my Halo buddies on Xbox Live were talking about building their new PCs. I decided to jump on the hype train. I spent all summer experimenting with different part lists, stretching each list to adhere to a $780 budget. In the end, I came away with a PC sporting an AMD FX-8320, 8GB RAM, a 1TB HDD, and a Radeon RX 470. This was the birth of my first PC, Sidewinder.
Sidewinder would eventually be upgraded into a Core i5 6500, 8GB DDR4, and an MSI Krait Z170 Motherboard that winter when I had Christmas and Birthday money to burn. The final upgrade to it all was the movement into the DIYPC D-480W case that Summer.
The game most predominantly played on Sidewinder was Unturned. Coming from the Hacker and Exploiter-filled Apocalypse Rising on ROBLOX, this was a welcome change. Unturned was much different, and harder to learn, but I integrated into the community quite nicely.
The spring of 2018 is where we are now. I had a plan set for a new Rig using funds from birthday money, selling useless junk I didn't need, and selling my beloved Sidewinder.
In early March, I constructed Mother War. This PC build is my current Magnum Opus. A Liquid-Cooled Ryzen 1700, 16GB of RGB DDR4, An SSD, and a Geforce GTX 1060 all in an ITX factor is absolute Eye candy.
And that is where we are now....
Im not flawless, none of us are.
When it comes down to it, my biggest flaws lie in my depression. I have been very severely depressed in the past, mostly in the Summer and Autumn of 2017 was when it was the worst. I wasn't able to function properly. There were three major trigger points for it all.
Point one; being ostracized from school. At this point it seemed as though everyone, including the schools administration, was out to get me. In April of 2017, I had made a private joke to my small ring of friends referring to the Columbine massacre in 1999. Later that day, I was called to the administration offices. Somebody, I'm not sure who, had snitched me out. I do admit, the Columbine shooting is pushing the realm of things that are healthy to joke about, but I was, er... quite the edgelord back then.
The actions the school took were insultingly overkill, even to my Attorney father. I was thrown out for upwards of 3 weeks, with no effort made by the school to collect any kind of make-up work. I was criminally charged with "Threats On A School Campus", and had to appear in court about it. No incriminating evidence proving I made any kind of legitimate threat was ever presented.
In the end, I was put onto Juvenile Diversion. I had to report to an officer by phone once a week, complete 50 Hours of Community Service, and write letters of apology to the school as a whole.
The worst punishment I received however, was the bullying I got when I got back. Apparently the rumor was that people saw me being dragged away in cuffs and that I had actually brought a gun to school that day with the intention of perpetrating a "Copycat" shooting. Complete, utter, ********.
Late May and June was the depression crescendo. I basically hit rock bottom at this point after two events. In late May I was dumped by the lady I had extreme feelings for. In reality, we had only been together since the last October (2016), but I thought that what we had was real, and we had planned on staying together through college. She dumped me for my best friend at the time. Me, Her, and my former best friend, Branden, no longer speak. To my knowledge, they are still together.
In mid June, my oldest brother, Jeffery Micheal Marfice, was killed in an assault outside a bar. Both him and his attacker had been drinking that night. My brother's killer had been touching and physically assaulting the Women in my brother's group, including his Fiance. My brother is a gentleman, and he would never put his hands on a lady, and would never tolerate those who do. He stepped in between them. My brother was punched once and hit his head on a curb. Head trauma killed him about 24 Hours later. He was 29, and passed away on his daughter's 6th birthday.
I had ended up going through an almost alcoholic phase, in which I would steal booze from my dad's liquor cart. I'm not sure if he ever caught on, but my drunk and sober nights started to become equal in frequency. The few people I did talk to tried to help me out of it and intervene, mostly my friend Emma. Some nights it would be me openly admitting to her that I had a problem, some nights I would be fighting that I had a problem, and eventually it got to the point where I would have to be on video calls with her for an entire night after it got to the point where I had attempted suicide.
Im not a fan of talking about it, but it's an important part of my life, so I feel like I should put it on here.
Im going to keep this short and sweet, as many will probably disagree with me.
I am a far-left Liberal.
I oppose the current Republican leadership, the ability to own certain firearms, and being required to stand for the National Anthem.
To justify the first part, I have always seen Donald Trump as a racist, misogynistic bully, both throughout his campaign and his administration.
Here's my highlight reel of why I don't like Donald Trump;
As for the second point, I am largely against gun ownership. I adopted this view after seeing Snapchat feeds from inside Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School. Hearing the gunshots from an AR-15 rifle and the students screaming, whether in fear, pain, or both, is heart wrenching. I do not believe that Semi-Automatic rifles and shotguns should be sold in the United States, and I think that all firearms sold must be sold under immense regulation, extensive background checks, and wait periods, as well as an abashment of private sales, such as Craigslist, Gun Fairs, or Giveaways.
As for the last part, I see standing for the National Anthem as a sign of respect, but choosing to protest by kneeling or otherwise should be under the First Amendment. I myself don't kneel, and always stand and face the flag, but this shouldn't be the same for all people. Forced Patriotism such as this is an aspect of Fascism in my eyes.
But, this is what I think. You can disagree, but don't tear me down for what I choose to believe.
I do have various social media pages and channels if you want to check them out
Music has been a passion of mine since I started entering the Punk Rock Scene. In the summer between 7th and 8th Grade, I started getting into a band called Green Day. Even if you haven't heard the name, you've at least heard one of their songs at least once in your life. They're behind absolutely classic songs such as Basket Case, Longview, Welcome to Paradise, Time of Your Life, American Idiot, Boulevard of Broken Dreams, Wake Me Up When September Ends, and Bang Bang!
I got into the band around the time that their new Politically-driven album, Revolution Radio was coming out, which I think helped to further view my liberal views.
Come a few months later, it started with My Chemical Romance, and I got way too into the Punk/Emo scene. I'm not sure if it's something to brag about, but I think I know 2000s Pop Punk/Emo better than the back of my hand. Here's just a few of those bands I listen to.
In case you can't tell, I'm quite the emo kid.
Yes, I do play a few Instruments. Piano, Guitar, and Bass. I'm also a surprisingly good singer. Most of my instruments were nameless brands that were handed down, but my electric guitar is more my pride and joy. A Squier Bullet Stratocaster. Cheap, but well made and sounds great.
I've kind of been playing it by ear, but depending on the song and the singer's vocal range, I'm not a bad singer either.
I have gone through both, and I feel the need to plug some kind of outlet in here too. If you or a loved one are struggling with addiction, depression, or suicidal thoughts, you need to get help. I don't care if it's a counselor, the police, a teacher, a parent, or your next door neighbor.
Suicide Prevention Hotline; 1-800-273-8255
Addiction Hotline; 1-800-273-8255